I was looking back at things I had written in the last year or so and they seem so odd. I write as my sounding board. My place for release. So yes all the ugly me gets to rear its head and open its mouth. But still reading some of this stuff is just so funny. There are some recurring themes that I could still rant about but... Mostly I think I have learned so much and maybe it is just understanding the ground rulesof life, but my friendships are and I am okay. So maybe I am loved seems appropriate thinking right now. Nobody is perfect, so peoples' love will not be perfect, and maybe after needy love comes real love. Real as in dented sometimes and beautiful the next.
Things I have learned or accepted:
- Love is love in any fractured state.
- Babies (anyone's) are truly gifts of grace.
- ADD medicine will not miraculously cure odd character traits.
- I have friends who love me.
- If the only friend I had was my mother, for the rest of my days, that would be okay.
- I really, really like my sister.
- I miss my Papa.
- I will be a damn fine nurse.
- Regret is a waste of tears.
- Minute by minute in faith is the best way to live.
- Some people talk and say nothing.
- Simplicity is underated.
- Insurance should be the right of all citizens.
- Being soft-hearted is not a curse.
- Protecting yourself takes too much out of life.
- I will live with my heart on my sleeve and my ideals in my eyes.
- God is with me. And I am still with him.
- Money is the root of all anxiety.
- I am a hippie mystic Christian.
- I will be okay.
